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Focus Magazine -Taking Back Our Narrative

Focus Magazine -Taking Back Our Narrative

I was featured in my university’s magazine in June! I gave the interview of course, but I didn’t even realize it was out until yesterday.

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I Spoke at a Cult Conference on Media & Survivor Stories

I Spoke at a Cult Conference on Media & Survivor Stories

I gave a presentation for media, trauma therapists and survivors at the International Cultic Studies Association conference in Dallas. The presentation was called The Role of the Media in the Recovery, Retraumatization and Empowerment of Survivors of Traumatic Psychological Manipulation. 

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Positive Psychology’s Character Strengths

Positive Psychology’s Character Strengths


Traditional psychology is the study of mental illness: DARK
Positive psychology is the study of mental wellness: LIGHT

Positive psychology and happiness is an EXPLODING field, bursting out bestselling books for a reason.

Before we can be happy or successful, we need to first develop the ability to see that positive change is possible. Only once we learn to see the world through a more positive lens can we summon all our motivation, emotion, and intelligence to achieve our personal and professional goals.- Shawn Achor, Author -“Before Happiness”

A survivor journey with a Positive Psychology framework could benefit from a “guidemap” that incorporates the Positive Psychology character strengths.


The Six Classifications of Character Strengths

1. Wisdom and Knowledge

Cognitive strengths that entail the acquisition and use of knowledge

[originality, ingenuity]: Thinking of novel and productive ways to conceptualize and do things;
includes artistic achievement but is not limited to it
[interest, novelty-seeking, openness to experience]: Taking an interest in
ongoing experience forits own sake; finding subjects and topics fascinating; exploring and discovering
[critical thinking]: Thinking things through and examining them from all sides; not jumping to conclusions; being able to change one’s mind in light of evidence; weighing all evidence fairly
•Love of Learning
: Mastering new skills, topics, and bodies of knowledge, whether on one’s own or formally; obviously related to the strength of curiosity but goes beyond it to describe the tendency to add systematically to what one knows
[wisdom]: Being able to provide wise counsel to others; having ways of looking at the world that
make sense to oneself and to other people

2. Courage

Emotional strengths that involve the exercise of will to accomplish goals in the face of opposition, external or internal

[valor]: Not shrinking from threat, challenge, difficulty, or pain; speaking up for what is right even
if there is opposition; acting on convictions even if unpopular; includes physical bravery but is not limited to it
[persistence, industriousness]: Finishing what one starts; persisting in a course of action in
spite of obstacles; “getting it out the door”; taking pleasure in completing tasks
[authenticity, integrity]: Speaking the truth but more broadly presenting oneself in a genuine way
and acting in a sincere way; being without pretense; taking responsibility for one’s feelings and actions
[vitality, enthusiasm, vigor, energy]: Approaching life with excitement and energy; not doing things
halfway or halfheartedly; living life as an adventure; feeling alive and activated


Interpersonal strengths that involve tending and befriending others

: Valuing close relations with others, in particular those in which sharing and caring are reciprocated; being close to people
[generosity, nurturance, care, compassion, altruistic love, “niceness”]: Doing favors and good deeds for others; helping them; taking care of them
•Social Intelligence
[emotional intelligence, personal intelligence]: Being aware of the motives and feelings of other people and oneself; knowing what to do to fit into different social situations; knowing what makes other people tick

4. Justice

Civic strengths that underlie healthy community life

[citizenship, social responsibility, loyalty]: Working well as a member of a group or team; being loyal to the group; doing one’s share
: Treating all people the same according to notions of fairness and justice; not letting personal feelings bias decisions about others; giving everyone a fair chance.
: Encouraging a group of which one is a member to get things done and at the time maintain time good relations within the group; organizing group activities and seeing that they happen.

5. Temperance

Strengths that protect against excess

:Forgiving those who have done wrong; accepting the shortcomings of others; giving people a second chance; not being vengeful
: Letting one’s accomplishments speak for themselves; not regarding oneself as more special than one is
: Being careful about one’s choices; not taking undue risks; not saying or doing things that might later be regretted
[self-control]: Regulating what one feels and does; being disciplined; controlling one’s appetites and emotions

6. Transcendence

Strengths that forge connections to the larger universe and provide meaning

•Appreciation of Beauty and Excellence
[awe, wonder, elevation]: Noticing and appreciating beauty, excellence, and/or skilled performance in various domains of
life, from nature to art to mathematics toscience to everyday experience
: Being aware of and thankful for the good things that happen; taking time to express thanks
[optimism, future-mindedness, future orientation]: Expecting the best in the future and working to achieve it; believing that a good future is something that can be brought about
[playfulness]: Liking to laugh and tease; bringing smiles to other people; seeing the light side; making (not necessarily telling) jokes
[faith, purpose]: Having coherent beliefs about the higher purpose and meaning of the universe; knowing where one fits within the larger scheme; having beliefs about the meaning of life that shape conduct and provide comfort
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KUTV Covered My Event: Christmas comes to Hildale for first time

KUTV Covered My Event:  Christmas comes to Hildale for first time

(KUTV) Wednesday afternoon hundreds of kids in Hildale experienced what’s being called the “First Christmas” in the Polygamist city since the 1980s.

Christine Marie from (Las Vegas), is the mastermind behind the holiday event.

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The First Christmas! Short Creek is Going to See Some Joy!

The First Christmas! Short Creek is Going to See Some Joy!

On Dec. 16, Voices for Dignity and Mrs. Gingerbread are throwing a Christmas party and open house for people who left polygamy this year – and are able to experience their very first Christmas!

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Escaping Polygamy, Speaking on Polygamy & Human Trafficking on TV

Escaping Polygamy, Speaking on Polygamy & Human Trafficking on TV

This week, I am thrilled that I was invited to speak on two different television shows on the intersection of polygamy and human trafficking. This is my odd, narrow, highly-specialized area of expertise that historically only the most passionate activisits cared about, and I am happy that things are finally changing. As far as I know, I was the first person who left a (psuedo) polygamy situation that also qualified for services as a survivor of human trafficking. 

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New Article: Tolga & I on Sex Trafficking, Polygamy

New Article: Tolga & I on Sex Trafficking, Polygamy

By Scott Dickensheets | Multifaceted pair Tolga and Christine Marie Katas have embarked on their most important work yet: providing refuge and inspiration for escapees from sex trafficking.

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Heartfelt Lessons from the Tragedy in Isla Vista

Heartfelt Lessons from the Tragedy in Isla Vista

I visited Isla Vista this week. My brother-in-law (aka “little brother”) lives in Isa Vista and is also attending UCSB, where six students were recently killed due to the rage of a frustrated young man who had mental health problems and was angry at women. We panicked all night because we couldn’t reach our little brother. The killings happened just a couple blocks from his home. We called, texted, facebooked, Skyped, emailed. All night. No word. We were terrified. As it turned out, he and a friend had stayed home to watched movies. He heard the gunshots, but he was fine.

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Little brother in a tree where he goes to think

I am also enrolled in a university that is based in Santa Barbara.

I also know what it’s like to be at the receiving end of misogyny and slut-shaming, from personal interactions with misogynists without a conscience, to my former religion, my work, to social media, and even from reputable corporations like Discovery Networks, Investigation Discovery, History Channel and others. (A couple years ago I shared a story from my past of surviving trauma that was orchestrated by a criminal mastermind, but they turned it into one of those “stupid woman caused it herself and deserved what she got” stories. It wasn’t fair and it wasn’t right, but the media is accountable to no one.) The media is absolutely part of the problem, and this is why I am now pursuing my PhD in Media Psychology at a university in Santa Barbara.

Needless to say, I felt a connection with this tragedy and this town, and I wish I could find a way to use media make the world a safer place for women. For everyone.

So a few days ago, my husband and I went to visit Isla Vista. Little brother showed Tolga and I the memorials. We both had a lump in our throats.


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This is where it all started. This was the home of 22-year old Elliot Rodger, the UCSB student who expressed his rage against the women who rejected him by slaughtering people, then taking his own life.


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Messages were still there. Through heart-felt words, flowers, chalk writings and candles, people expressed their love for those who lost their lives here.


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You’re in our hearts forever.


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No one was in a hurry to take all the special remembrances away. Someone put a box of chalk there for people to express their feelings. No one stole it.


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 What they did do, however, was move items from the memorial sites into the UCSB library to create a CD of digital images of the memories, messages and notes. Someone politely left a letter explaining it all on a page covered by a sheet protector, weighted down by two candles.


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This is the street outside of the apartment building where Elliot Rodger lived.


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The street on Isla Vista where Rodger plowed through people and sprayed businesses with bullets.


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Above – the sidewalk outside the IV Deli Mart where Rodger left more casualties


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A happy face balloon with a graduation hat. Perhaps it was a message for one of the students about to graduate?


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Outside IV Deli Mart. Beautiful signs of life, and of lives so loved.


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Messages about gun control still reign prominent.


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So much anguish, so much to say.


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The recovery message is profound. “Hate cannot drive out hate. Only love can do that” MLK


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The names of the deceased are held in place by a Teddy Bear

– a poignant reminder of innocence amidst the pain and sorrow.


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A love note or message of caring is tucked into the bear’s shirt. I wanted to read it,

but somehow I felt unworthy.

The community mourned Katherine Cooper, Christopher Martinez, Veronika Weiss, Weihan Wang, George Chen, and Cheng Yuan Hong, and celebrated the incredible lives they lived.  Read about them HERE.


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Emily Lindin, the founder of the UnSlut Project, wrote “In Killer’s World, Victims are Blamed.” It got picked up by CNN, and this young lady is my new hero. She wrote that Rodgers “is the product of a culture that condones and in many cases endorses the belief that if you are a ‘nice guy’ — or a ‘supreme gentleman’ as Rodger described himself — you are somehow entitled to sex with women.”


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“After the killings, the extent of misogyny in this community was revealed in the creation of a Facebook page called ‘Elliot Rodger Is an American Hero,’ with the advice for everyone to ‘share your thoughts and pay your respects to Elliot Rodger here. Also, view this final message from our beloved hero,’  which links to his videotaped rant, with commenters expressing solidarity with his desire for revenge against women. The page has since been taken down.” Emily Lindin


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On a piece of cardboard supported by a bike stand, someone wrote,

“Those we love don’t go away,

They walk beside us every day

Unseen, unheard, but always near,

Still loved, still missed and very dear.

Death leaves a heartache no one can heal,

Love leaves a memory no one can steal.”


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The community is rallying for the victims’ families and the survivors.  This donation box is in the IV Deli Mart, where Christopher Michaels-Martinez lost his life.


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The community, still reeling in disbelief, tries to carry on.


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There’s a message to learn that we all hope does not fade away after the flowers are gone. We have an opportunity  to honor the victims, the survivors and the families by making all this make a difference.

Will it be about gun control, mental health, respecting women, victim blaming or something else? Emily Lindin thinks the conversation needs to be about misogyny.

“But as we move forward and try to make sense of what happened, it’s our responsibility to start productive, respectful conversations about the misogyny behind Rodger’s actions,” she wrote.


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As I walked back to the car, I saw a homeless man and another man being comforted by a college co-ed. I got the impression the man was a witness the night it happened.


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They were perfect strangers, but she stopped walking her dog to comfort him in his time of need. He cried and she listened.

Whoever she is, she is a saint.


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Maybe she cried and he listened too.

Maybe that is how we can make beautiful meaning come from this tragedy. Maybe that’s how we can change the world:

Listening when people cry, and then hugging instead of hating.


Photo by Simon Astaire. Taken from Channel 4 News http://bit.ly/1mxMhYT

 Just like the fathers of Elliot Rodger, the killer, and his victim, Chris Martinez.

Hugging instead of hating. Loving instead of blaming.



Photo taken from http://bit.ly/1mxMhYT





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“Documentary” Sadness

“Documentary” Sadness



It is absolutely false and outrageous to have portrayed that I ever gave up my children.

Shame on all the producers, distributors and parties involved who produced and edited this “documentary” to appear this way so as to increase the shock value. I am devastated and disappointed by Discovery Networks , eOne Entertainment and Raw TV for misrepresenting the truth in such an utterly disgusting way.  Every one of these parties knew that this is false.

Since when do you describe a divorced single mother as someone who “gave up her children” when the children went to visit the father with whom she shared custody?  No single mother who shares custody with her ex-husband is accused of having “given up her children” when they visit their father.  The fact is that my ecclesiastical leader pressured me to give them up for adoption.  I could not do that, and I did not do that.

The following transcripts of the interview and other documents were created by Raw TV and sent to me by Raw TV before the show aired, proving that Raw TV, which is now being purchased by Discovery, were acutely aware that I did not obey the prophet and give up my children.

From the producer’s transcripts of my actual recorded interviews: 

“He told me I needed to give my children up for adoption [crying] to, as my next text. [crying] and I like fainted. And I couldn’t believe what he was saying, and I said it’s not right, it’s not possible. [crying] and he told me, that this was my requirement and that I’ve not yet earned eternal motherhood, and I would never earned eternal motherhood, unless I obeyed this [crying] thing

“And I walked through the valley, the canyon just screaming and crying, so confused. . . I couldn’t do it. He told me to do it and I couldn’t do it, I couldn’t pass this test, and I said, I don’t understand, I’ve passed every test you’ve given me, [crying] why this?

 ”So when he would call, I would have the children be quiet [crying] but I couldn’t do it. And I purposely disobeyed and hid it, and just hoped the prophet would not know.

“I was worried that he would find out I had not obeyed and that there would be some eternal consequences for me. Excuse me. [crying]

“And when he asked me to live among the poor and needy, and told me I needed to make this permanent, I pretended I made it permanent. I pretended that I had given them up for adoption, when in reality they were simply separated from me. There was no custody battle between me and my ex-husband ever, we always both wanted was best for our children.

The story producer wrote her notes (in all caps, in document called  Christine Marie Heart – Story Notes from Transcript)  below.

“Christine received an email from one of the sisters, telling her that ***** had been sent to jail for violating a protective order against one of his ex-wives. He wanted her to visit him at the jail (CLARIFY) at 9am the next day.”

“Christine went to see *****. He told her he was simply incarcerated on false charges like Joseph Smith before him, and that it was all false. She believed him. He asked if she had given up her children for adoption like he’d asked. Christine lied and said she had.  *THIS IS A MOMENT OF STRENGTH, WE ADMIRE HER FOR IT.”   ( p. 10, 5th paragraph)

 This “moment of strength” and refusal to give up my children, was intentionally eliminated, and through the use of cutting and pasting words and video out of context, the message was altered to say something completely different and defamatory. Furthermore, I was made to appear that obeyed the prophet’s demand to give up my children, and I did it without even questioning! What?!

Click on the producer’s notes BELOWproof-IDknew-I-didnt-give-up-kids-orprostitute

After the children were picked up in a car driven by an apparent stranger, the character who played me did not even cry. In fact, video and audio of me speaking in other contexts were spliced together to make it appear I was nonchalant, if not happy, now that my children were gone.  This is a despicable misrepresentation of the facts.



My letter to the General Manager of Raw TV, who produced the “documentary” on a story from my life.

Dear Piers of Raw TV,
I just saw that Prophet or Predator is going to air again on Investigation Discovery.  It knocked the wind out of me.  I cannot live through this again.  
I know it aired in Denmark and other places because I have been getting distressing emails.
I now have to prepare for yet another emotional onslaught from the public, as well as more revenge from the sociopath who was emboldened by your misrepresentations in the “docudrama.”   We could have saved people.  We could have used my story to educate and help people.  But all it has done is make me want to die and empower my predator with more money and supporters to terrorize me online because you chose to falsify my story in a way that supported his defense.
My story has ZERO to do with being in love with him and I expressed over and over to make sure it did not come across like that.  He was my ecclesiastical leader.  My prophet.  I was in a culture of obedience.  Period.

On Thu, Jun 13, 2013 at 11:01 AM, Piers Vellacott <piers@raw.co.uk> wrote:

Dear Christine Marie,

I am sorry that you are still distressed by some of the negative feedback to the program and your perceived misrepresentation by us.  It’s very disheartening, when the team here worked so tirelessly to create a film that was a sensitive and honest account of the story you presented to us.

You’re not sorry one bit, don’t patronize me. 
Falsely portraying that I obeyed the prophet’s command to give up my children in the name of God – was NOT an honest account of my story and you knew that long before it aired.
In fact – I was repeatedly raped & beaten – all the while believing it was part of some plan that would guarantee my & my children’s place in eternity.  I gave up many material possessions and dreams believing it was required to save my children.
But even after all that, knowing I might face hell, I still could NOT bear to obey his commandment to give them up.  So I lied to the prophet.  
This couldn’t have been more clear – even in your own notes.

When we complete production on a television programme we deliver it on to the networks, and it totally beyond our control to start pulling programmes off the air.

I do not believe this. It would take an hour or two of your time to edit, and you could easily send out a corrected version by YouSendIt or DVD.  

You initial reaction was one of jubilation, and on the second viewing (without distraction) you told us you were ‘happy, happy, happy.’

THIS IS FALSE.  I felt a jubilant sense of relief that it was over, that I initially got positive feedback from people who loved me, and that you honored certain truths. I did not write all the things that I felt bad about because I wanted to put it behind me on a positive note.  However, the first time I watched it WITHOUT DISTRACTION was when I watched it online with a reporter from the Las Vegas Review Journal who was sitting next to me – when I saw those words for the first time, and I had a tearful, sobbing meltdown in front of him. 
Furthermore, he had a camera man with him capturing this event as well.  So if you find it to be some sort of defense that I wrote a positive letter the next morning, get over it.
It was then, when I saw the words “Christine gave up her children in the name of God,” that I suddenly understood the primary cause for all the public hatred and disgust towards me that went far beyond internet trolls.
It is condescending for you to brush off my outrage over the damaging misrepresentation as being simply a matter of changing my mind because of a few negative comments on twitter.
This is an irresponsible and insensitive response on the part of Raw TV, eOne Entertainment, Investigation Discovery, Lifetime, History and every other channel in every other country that airs this falsely doctored and re-traumatizing show.
All producer notes and transcripts reflect that you had a clear understanding of the truth, even indicating that you knew the truth would be something that would cause people to respect me.  But you changed it.
You had plenty of time after I spoke with you in person and articulated my concerns to make the episode right before you sent out a final copy.   But someone, somewhere, was too excited about making a profit to not re-traumatize a victim. 
You did not stand up for me or fight for me or even come to my defense online or in the media.
Louise assured me she would speak to the press afterward on behalf of Raw TV to make it clear how my story was a case of human trafficking so I would not show up on Wikipedia as the brainwashed prostitute and have no media reference to rebuttal that.  
Apparently she forgot.
You have not cared about my welfare one bit since you have exploited my story.  You know how this has been so publicly humiliating that it has sent me into a very dark place and in need of therapy, yet you allow the show to air over and over without even the courtesy of seeing how I am doing, or at the very least, giving me advance warning.
Your editing decisions have taken the most traumatic thing in my entire life which I worked so hard to heal from, and publicly multiplied my humiliation by 8o million, triggered my PTSD in full and added a million pokes and jabs from public hatred that resulted from something you represented that was false. 
But you are too arrogant, proud, and afraid of losing your income or damaging your OWN career to admit you made a horrible, horrible judgment call.
How difficult would it have been to respond to my request to create a new project which cleared up your harmful misrepresentations in my story, educated the public on the psychological terrorism used to dominate women in both polygamy and human trafficking, and actually helped people?  You could have dispelled some myths and disabled some misogyny, maybe saved some lives, possibly made more money in the process, and all parties could have had a satisfying remedy.  
But no. I deserved what I got.
We absolutely did not present you as a stupid woman in love, we presented a very complex story, as narrated beautifully by you – and with you giving us a retrospective view of a very difficult and tragic episode in your life.  Your presentation was compelling and you gave a very honest and frank account of your thoughts and emotions at this time.
The public doesn’t see it this way, but thank you. Someone in the production camp clearly intended to represent me as a stupid woman in a LOVE CON, or you wouldn’t have taken out the fact that I was dating Jack and other great men at the time.  You wouldn’t have coached Jack to say I was “an idiot.”  You wouldn’t have started the Adam sequence with “I was lonely” – a phrase taken out of context and inserted it there to accomplish the “lonely woman” spin – which has supported the ridiculous defense of my predator.  
You would have included my actual explanations about the religious rationale for my decisions and eliminated your fictional parts that made me even more stupid, desperate and in love than I was.  

   I think that through the passage of time one of your main concerns was the caption concerning your children.  We handled that section with great sensitivity and made clear that the children remained in touch with you and were sent to their father.

This has nothing to do with the passage of time.  That is wishful thinking on your part to absolve yourself from the responsibility to make things right.
Stating that my children went to their father does not NEGATE the harmful impact of the false words YOU put on the screen that convince the public that I obeyed the prophet and GAVE UP MY CHILDREN IN THE NAME OF GOD.
Every damn one of you knows I did not do that.  
You knew that phrase would be shocking, controversial and cause people to hate me because it is common public knowledge.  That’s exactly why you used it…
 “For this decision, I have been threatened with death and sexual violence by strangers. I have been called human “garbage” and “worse than Hitler.” And I am still the woman everyone refers to when they are talking about mothers who leave. The hostility and abuse that is directed at the “mother who leaves” clearly does not depend on her actual leaving.”
That’s the kind of response I am still getting, only worse.  You can’t tell me you had no idea that people would respond like this. 

We also made clear that after you realised the deception your first instinct was to reunite your family which you did within a short period of time.

Thank you for that. However, this did not undo the damage of that false and inflammatory phrase “gave up her children.”  People still think I gave up my kids, when in fact, I refused.   
Allowing your children to stay elsewhere for a while is NOT the same as giving up your kids!  
I have to disagree that we handled this section of the story with insensitivity.  We portrayed all of your children going to live with their father when in fact in interview you said;

“To be honest  I have a memory block about where my littlest boy went. I can’t even remember. I have an erased part there. I don’t even know where he went. So I have no memory of it. I don’t, I have certain memories about this part.”

Yes, I forgot which skateboarding friend Tim stayed with during that time – Devon or Micah.  Turns out it was Devon, they are still skateboarding friends and just made another video, in fact.  Now Tim’s in Norway in grad school.  If you think I am ashamed of allowing my children to stay in a safe place while I was unstable and in danger, think again.
No one would hate me for that decision.  What the public is disgusted by is your false portrayal that I “gave up my children” because I supposedly was in love with a conman who told me to do so, and in the show I didn’t appear to fight it, or question it, or even cry when they got picked up by a stranger and taken away.
Quite the opposite. You spliced my words to say, “Now that my children were gone, I REALLY had to believe he was a prophet!”  to support YOUR  misrepresentation –  and those doctored words even had a happy, bubbly tone of voice!  
This was terribly disrespectful to me and my children.

Now more time has passed and your concerns about the programme are not just limited to this section but to the entire programme.

As MD of Raw, we pride ourselves on our output and on the teams we put together to make our output.  I am confident that we dealt with all the issues in your film professionally and with great sensitivity I absolutely stand by the integrity of the programme makers we hire to make sometime difficult but important programmes.

Integrity?  Really?

I hope with time you will recognise that we believe you to be the victim of terrible events – one that you survived with dignity and honour.  I remember clearly the conversation you and I had prior to transmission of the film, I believe and still do, that you are an incredibly strong and brave woman.  I acknowledge that your story has attracted negative comments, and I pity those who feel that using the veil of the internet is an inappropriate way of getting to you.

Based on the final edits, I do NOT believe that all the parties involved cared to protect my dignity, especially Investigation Discovery. I believe the producing parties cared primarily about how much money that could make by further exploiting the heartache and trauma of a survivor of human trafficking, making her appear like she was not a victim of anything but her own shocking stupidity, and stimulating the impression that she chose her fate and deserved what she got.  
The parties involved decided to eliminate the parts that would help the public understand the religious extortion of polygamy, human trafficking, brainwashing, and complex sexual and psychological trauma.  Instead, all that was stripped away and the story portrayed a trafficking victim in a way that made the victim more to blame and more hated than her sociopathic predator, topping it off with the messages that 
– she also gave up her children, 
– is damned by God
– committed horrific crimes
– and belongs in a playlist with people like the Manson killers and other female murderers.
I have repeatedly requested for these heart-breaking misrepresentations to be corrected, but all my requests have been ignored.
I hardly call this sensitivity, Piers.
I will not write you again to fix the heart-breaking PR disaster your companies have caused.  My children deserve better.  This is an epic media failure that is about to backfire.
People should never mess with the sacredness of motherhood, stir an angry mamma bear or accuse trafficking victims of being responsible for the horrific crimes against them.
I am not going to cry any more.  I am going to fight back.
Christine Marie

Network & production executives such as –


Henry Schleiff, President (Investigation Discovery)

Michael Kot, exec producer (Entertainment One)

Ron Simon, exec producer (Investigation Discovery)

Piers Vellacott, Dimitri Dogani- execs (Raw TV)


wanted to create a new series.

It was represented to me that it would be a show for Discovery Networks with the following description:

“The series seeks to tell these people’s stories of subjugation and ultimate survival. The hope is that the stories will be a testament to the power of the human spirit to overcome crushing psychological adversity.” 

But after I participated and signed the release, they sent out an industry press release (unbeknownst to me at the time), that said –

(wt) DANGEROUS PERSUASIONS “tells extraordinary and terrifyingly true tales of everyday people who were manipulated into committing horrific crimes.”  


Without my prior knowledge or approval, they decided to turn my story of surviving human trafficking, multiple rapes, beatings and trauma – into a story where I had committed crimes or “committed horrific acts.”

Furthermore, they coached a former boyfriend, now an actor who was NOT a witness, but an actor who was falsely represented as a witness, to say things to get across their desired points.  Like what?  Like Christine Marie was to blame.

“followed her heart, had no common sense, and wanted to believe so badly she was willing to hurt herself.”




Like she did it for love.

Like she wanted love so badly that she was willing to do those things to herself.

Instead of speaking about the culture of Mormon patriarchy and obedience – such as in the news today:


They made my primary motivation to be one of love.



The show description all through cyberspace uses my real name “Christine Marie” (great for SEO, especially for a professional) and it says that the self-proclaimed prophet – proceeded to convince her to give her children away, relinquish her possessions and sell her body.

That description meets show series’ description.  Millions and millions of people can see these words associated with my name and my face right now. But as you know, allowing visitation with the children’s father (which divorced parents by law MUST do) is not the same as “giving your children away.”  Even Jack said, “Why did they phrase it like that? That was ridiculous.”


I have yet to receive a retraction or an apology.

This is what I wished to write to these people:

You do know that selling your body is a crime, right?  (Although it shouldn’t be.)  But it is.

Are you aware that being the victim of multiple rapes and beatings does not make a woman a criminal?

Are you aware that a woman is neither a criminal nor a prostitute even if money somehow changed hands in a building where she was the only female prey among 84 men?  Nope.  Even if men paid a pimp for her, this is still not “being convinced” to “sell her body.

Are you aware that being forced, coerced, extorted, monitored, followed, threatened, spiritually blackmailed, slapped, raped, robbed, penetrated with objects, confined, held down, screamed at, sworn at, insulted, had her head smashed into the floor, shoved, kicked, (did I say raped?) and sexually exploited for the sadistic, voyeuristic and financial benefit of others – is not the same as having been “convinced” to “sell her body?”


Weird, right – that I would be confused and disappointed that my story would be altered to fit into series about people who were persuaded to commit horrific crimes?

I am really just another female commodity that corporate America felt entitled to use and exploit as they saw fit.

I did not deserve to be slut-shamed by corporate America.

In Santa Barbara, the same city where Emily Lindin started the Unslut Project to fight against slut-shaming,


the same city where Elliot Rodger taught the world why it is dangerous to allow entitlement and misogyny

is the same city where I am now pursuing a PhD in Media Psychology – as a direct result of my experience with Investigation Discovery, Raw TV, History Channel, eOne Entertainment. and now add to that – Crime Investigation UK.

No woman who her traumatic survival story, especially when it includes sexual trauma, should be portrayed in a way that leaves people to believe that “she was an idiot” who “hurt herself.”






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From Producer’s Notes


From the original synopsis Raw TV sent to Investigation Discovery


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